post ni punye tajuk sy pn rase cam sedih je :-)...tp actually mungkin ada hikmah disebaliknya...Dia lebih tahu..kita merancang Dia juga merancang tetapi perancanganNya adalah melebihi segala-galaNya...
post as Engineer was 1 of my ambition last time...cz mase tu x rase target nk kawin ke nk ade anak ke nk ade family ke..jodoh ajal maut ketentuan tuhan...jodoh dtg..kawin..ade anak bina family...title Ir tidak lagi menjadi idaman...but at d first place cam rase nk teruskan juga tp bila tgk sahabat ditepi ni belajar bagai nak rak...itu lom kawin n lom ade anak tu...cam nk pengsan dia sambung belajar...pastu plus plak x de mase depan nk dpt Ir nye kalau still stay kt company ni..so decision msti di buat...
before nk jadi engineer tu penah la nk jadi lawyer...haha...tp alangkah takutnye bila disuruh belajar dan tahu semua sejarah..OMG...is not what i want...hehe..sadly says that i cant full fill as per my late father want but happyly says i did proud him as an engineer..
then, time by time..getting married did complete my life but having my boy after that really complete our life together..hope us will happily ever after and may Allah put the rahmat on us always insyaallah...
be a working mummy looks like senang or ok je...just go thru the experince..then when everytime put d eyes to my boy...evrytime tulah i cant ignore d feelings come in wanna to jaga dia with my own asuhan...but sabar still sabar lagi..mungkin kerana kehendak dunia..kehendak sy dan suami yg inginkan kehidupan yg lebih selesa..dua2 as an engineer buat kami selesa cuma mungkin inginkan lebih dari itu..
nvr mind i suffer a bit..smpailah mr hubby kene posting luar kuala lumpur..mula2 rase ok..tp bila my boy membesar sikit i know he want more attnetion from me..becoz mr daddy only can give the attention on weekends evn though i know in his praying always pray for us...thnks mr hubby..but yet still the baby need the attention more...i felt like i am too selfish when still ignoring him whenever dia need me play with him laugh with him...listen to him wpun bahasa kami berbeza..hehe...tp kerana kepenatan bekerja membuat sy tidak dpt menumpu dgn lebih lama...smbil melihat sj dia bermain sndirian..terasa kekesalan dihati...namun apa kan daya...mami tgh bad mood daa...pitty hem very much...
kdg kala bila nafsu amarah merajai minda..ttb dia kene marah...suddenyly something drop out frm my eyes...mahdi...i am sorry...
then we, me n mr hubby discuss each other..something need to be change or someone need to be changed...we found out tht he need more attention from us of not he will create ape2 je la yg leh buat kita bg attention kt dia trmasuklah scolding him anywhere...i'm sorry again...its not easy...
mr hubby n me decided..i need to stop all this n try new things...berhenti kerja sbg engineer dan cari pekerjaan yg boleh beri masa pada anak especially...pandangan sy hnyalah to be in d taska or operate d taska...hmm..
alhamdulillah we found the advrtsmnt than ask..bincang bincang bincang...we decided to buy...tp ada pula masalah lain...di pihak ketiga pula...anyway...kami serah pada tuhan yg menentukan rezeki kami..insyaallah kami cuba lagi...moga Dia perkenankan...
my target is as per advice from mr hubby...niat utk lebih masa beribadat...insyaallah syg...mnjadi isteri yg solehah juga ibadat katanya...mnjadi ibu yg baik pn ibadat juga katanya...me know tp lebih firm bila dia mengiyakan...insyaallah moga masa ku untuk beribadat kpd tuhan lebih bertambah2...
"Ya Allah ya tuhanKu...perkenankanlah permintaan ku ini..aku ini hambaMu yg dhaif hina lemah lagi banyak dosa...aku tidak mampu berbuat sesuatu jika tidak dgn bantuanMu jika tidak dengan izinMu...berkatilah hidupku dunia akhirat...mudahkanlah ia...hidupkanlah aku dlm IMAN matikanlah aku dalam IMAN...jadikanlah kami sekeluarga anak2 yg soleh solehah, isteri yg solehah suami yg soleh..amin ya robbanal 'alamin.."
post as Engineer was 1 of my ambition last time...cz mase tu x rase target nk kawin ke nk ade anak ke nk ade family ke..jodoh ajal maut ketentuan tuhan...jodoh dtg..kawin..ade anak bina family...title Ir tidak lagi menjadi idaman...but at d first place cam rase nk teruskan juga tp bila tgk sahabat ditepi ni belajar bagai nak rak...itu lom kawin n lom ade anak tu...cam nk pengsan dia sambung belajar...pastu plus plak x de mase depan nk dpt Ir nye kalau still stay kt company ni..so decision msti di buat...
before nk jadi engineer tu penah la nk jadi lawyer...haha...tp alangkah takutnye bila disuruh belajar dan tahu semua sejarah..OMG...is not what i want...hehe..sadly says that i cant full fill as per my late father want but happyly says i did proud him as an engineer..
then, time by time..getting married did complete my life but having my boy after that really complete our life together..hope us will happily ever after and may Allah put the rahmat on us always insyaallah...
be a working mummy looks like senang or ok je...just go thru the experince..then when everytime put d eyes to my boy...evrytime tulah i cant ignore d feelings come in wanna to jaga dia with my own asuhan...but sabar still sabar lagi..mungkin kerana kehendak dunia..kehendak sy dan suami yg inginkan kehidupan yg lebih selesa..dua2 as an engineer buat kami selesa cuma mungkin inginkan lebih dari itu..
nvr mind i suffer a bit..smpailah mr hubby kene posting luar kuala lumpur..mula2 rase ok..tp bila my boy membesar sikit i know he want more attnetion from me..becoz mr daddy only can give the attention on weekends evn though i know in his praying always pray for us...thnks mr hubby..but yet still the baby need the attention more...i felt like i am too selfish when still ignoring him whenever dia need me play with him laugh with him...listen to him wpun bahasa kami berbeza..hehe...tp kerana kepenatan bekerja membuat sy tidak dpt menumpu dgn lebih lama...smbil melihat sj dia bermain sndirian..terasa kekesalan dihati...namun apa kan daya...mami tgh bad mood daa...pitty hem very much...
kdg kala bila nafsu amarah merajai minda..ttb dia kene marah...suddenyly something drop out frm my eyes...mahdi...i am sorry...
then we, me n mr hubby discuss each other..something need to be change or someone need to be changed...we found out tht he need more attention from us of not he will create ape2 je la yg leh buat kita bg attention kt dia trmasuklah scolding him anywhere...i'm sorry again...its not easy...
mr hubby n me decided..i need to stop all this n try new things...berhenti kerja sbg engineer dan cari pekerjaan yg boleh beri masa pada anak especially...pandangan sy hnyalah to be in d taska or operate d taska...hmm..
alhamdulillah we found the advrtsmnt than ask..bincang bincang bincang...we decided to buy...tp ada pula masalah lain...di pihak ketiga pula...anyway...kami serah pada tuhan yg menentukan rezeki kami..insyaallah kami cuba lagi...moga Dia perkenankan...
my target is as per advice from mr hubby...niat utk lebih masa beribadat...insyaallah syg...mnjadi isteri yg solehah juga ibadat katanya...mnjadi ibu yg baik pn ibadat juga katanya...me know tp lebih firm bila dia mengiyakan...insyaallah moga masa ku untuk beribadat kpd tuhan lebih bertambah2...
"Ya Allah ya tuhanKu...perkenankanlah permintaan ku ini..aku ini hambaMu yg dhaif hina lemah lagi banyak dosa...aku tidak mampu berbuat sesuatu jika tidak dgn bantuanMu jika tidak dengan izinMu...berkatilah hidupku dunia akhirat...mudahkanlah ia...hidupkanlah aku dlm IMAN matikanlah aku dalam IMAN...jadikanlah kami sekeluarga anak2 yg soleh solehah, isteri yg solehah suami yg soleh..amin ya robbanal 'alamin.."
